Finally, the storm of assignments + exam is finish (at least) before another ‘storm’ on May. I’m gonna have 2 weeks break and now we will have long weekend. So, everybody is going to other city (including me). So, when I just arrived home, it felt weird that my life a bit calm and quiet. However, Canberra is super lovely in this quiet week.
Since, the 14-days-of-detox is almost over, I have to admit that the first week was super hard. But the second week a bit nice since I feel more peaceful (and have to focus on exam + assignment too!). During this detox week, I’ve been thinking a lot about many things lately (besides poverty reduction, growth, aid policy and democracy, obviously). Love is one of thing that in my mind lately.
One of my good friend fall in love with someone, and it somehow affecting him so much because the person that he loves doesn’t love him back. So, he’s dealing with a lot of uneasy emotion lately. It’s not easy to say “move on” to someone, because you never know how deep is the love. And sometimes you can’t choose someone that you fell into. It just happened.
After the last heartbreak experience and had relationship with this guy (oh update story, I cut this whatever-ship we have, too much drama lately, and I just can’t afford to focus on another drama. I need to focus on my study and my life here), I don’t know if I’m able to love someone again. Or maybe I’m just too tired with any feeling and emotion. I do remember, I have discussion with my friend about love. I told him that love is artificial things. You can love someone because the situation that encourage you to have romantic feeling, for instance if you meet that person everyday, you have similar taste of music, etc.
But I just met someone who lately say that he loves me. Its super weird (even until now) that somebody can love me. Sometimes its unexplained feeling and without no reason at all. He said there’s something in my personality that makes him likes me. Even I always being straightforward and brutally honest to him, the feeling still there. All I can do is say thank you to him. Because I know how hard is to love someone who doesn’t love you back. And fall in love is not an easy thing because you need courage and bravery to love someone deeply.