I found a blog post written by Aldo about ‘Perjalanan Mencari Rumah‘ and it hits me right. I feel related to his writing especially the part of when he’s longing for a place can accept him as he is. The fight of identity within myself always lead me to questioned everything. True that, in my own country I’m the part of majority people. Moreover, also belong to privilege group too. Having Javanese bloodline, a moslem, live in capital, having a good quality of education, able to pursue my education to Master degree etc. But sometimes I have different value from people and some of them think I’m odd and against society’s value.
Able to live in Australia is a wide opening eye experience for me, especially to meet many kind of people who accepting me the way I am. Just like any other unpopular thought in many people who live abroad, I’m thinking to live outside Indonesia for the sake of experience, acceptance and possible better future options. I met a lot of immigrants from South Asian countries, African countries, Middle-east countries and they always laugh when I told them the idea of changing nationality is unpopular in Indonesia because its a sign of ‘not-love-your-country’. Some of them are reach success point (and willing to achieve more) and have better job or life, the others are still struggling.
I love to live and establish my life in Indonesia. Since I have big personal goals that I want to achieve here. But reading the current situation now, where conservatism groups are rising, nobody can easily predict about what will happen in next 5 or 10 years. Since democracy is about majority rules (although it supposedly protect the minority values as well), I don’t know what if the majority values against my own value. Some people will argue to fight back and build your own community that you wanted. But its not simple since you need to have some such power to do so. Now, I sound skeptical with the idea itself. lol.
Anyway, the question of home is always haunting me. Surely, Jakarta is always be home for me. But, Canberra is now became home as well. Just like what Aldo said in his post, home is a place when you can contribute something and its not just a place where you feel belong but also you build something on it. Where will I go for my next journey? Can’t wait to look for my third home 🙂