#Fangirling over Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez

My previous post about “home” and nationality full of pessimism. I have to admit that being skeptical are my political choice lately since I always take everything with heart. It leads me to heartbroken and being hurt every time I see something unfair and against justice. Politics are bad, people keep saying that. As Harold Lasswell famous definition of politic is about who gets what, when and how. It is about a method to achieve something, mostly to achieve power. Politic is an action and the method chosen is sometimes anything as long as reach the goals. I underline the word anything since, it could be any possible way. And sometimes the way that against my value. Thats why many people don’t like politics.

However, the best way to change something is from within. If you become the part of the system itself, it more effective to change something rather than you do it from outside the system. I don’t say that social pressure from outside is not important. It is still important. But understand the situation inside the system, know the challenge inside, much more give valuable insight to change the system itself.

Then, I found her. Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez. Who defeated a 10-term congressman in New York City’s congressional primary! And she’s 28 years old.

What so good about her, she inspired me and fires the light in my heart. I love politics and would love to do something to my own nation. Her positive attitude helps me to get excited again to do something for my country. Yet, she may be in US, but what she did has spread all over the world.

Many things that we can learn from her.

First, good people support good people. I do believe the only way to change a system is by collectivism. By supporting others (especially the one who shared similar value and purpose) to join the system, will help you to achieve the goals together.

Second, know your representation well. She is really good to profiling herself and make people can relate them to her. Just like any students in US, she has a student-debt that need to repay. She did part-time job as waitress and bartender. Much story that people can relate with. She knows the struggle within the people and she can capture it really well.

Third, I love the way she answered “there is nothing radical about moral clarity” when a reporter asked her if she’s too radical.

So, lets see how her journey continue in politics. ❤


25 June 2018


Today is my birthday. I spent the night with two of my best friends and we kinda had staycation. When I woke up in the morning, I can see rain fell down to Jakarta. The Monday morning started in a gloomy mood. I always love see the city view from above and lucky we got room in 16th floor. The last time I saw city view from above is in Melbourne around end of May. However, for me Jakarta still looks prettier because of its vulnerability. I do remember it was also rainy morning in Melbourne. And I left the city with a weird emotion and feeling.

This morning in Jakarta, I still feel surreal of my own birthday. On one side of me kinda deny the fact that its my birthday, on the other side I kinda excited receiving text from friends. I have to feel grateful that I spent my birthday with my close friends and families. But what is birthday anyway, is a ticking down to lesser years in your life. Still, its a good time to reflect what you have been passed the previous year.

I have to say that my 27 years old journey quite an experience. I learnt a lot of things and completely change the way I am (my values, the way I think, etc) if I compare to previous years ago. Its true that people will change, but your future will be define by how your decision now.

I have been deeply in love

I have been hurt 

I learnt to stand tall and stood for myself

I learnt to say no

I made mistakes

I learnt to understand people shoes 

I learnt to trust people again

I forgive some people

I have so much fun

I became cold heart girl

I took random and impulsive decision

I learnt to do not think what other people opinion and focus on myself

I became stronger

Obviously after 2018 my life would not be easier as I will be graduate on December. Real life awaits for me. University is a safe bubble as a place to separate you from real world. So, during the second half of 2018 I know I need to prepare myself.

My friend asked me what is my wish for my birthday. All I can think is I am able to find a good job and career after I graduate (lol realistis banget). But some people (especially parents) think about marriage (well, typical Indonesian).

To be realistic as it may sound, I just need to prepare myself for any condition. Maybe I will be more ambitious this semester, who knows. But, lets enjoy life in Australia while you still have few months left there. ❤

Re-thinking Family Relationship

Eid supposedly a happy moment when family could gather and enjoy togetherness after being busy with life. But somehow, it could be anxious experience. I thought it was only me. After a year or so didn’t meet half of the big family members, I was being anxious. Sure, I’m pretty excited to meet some of them (because the aunt who usually gives nice recommendation for future career, or another aunt who can cook delicious pasta etc), but I can’t hide my anxiety.

I thought it was only me. Until I scroll down my twitter timeline, I found some tweets who mentioned that they are not comfortable to be in family gathering, choose to get out from house or locked themselves in the room. It’s totally their rights to do so. But, it hits me right to questioned the phenomena.


First, what can you consider as family relationship? Obviously it is because of the bloodline and you can’t choose your family because you are stick with them forever.

Second, no family is perfect. To be honest, Eid moment is the time when my mind wondering about how people can cry and apologise to each other and within a minutes they are start talking about each other. (Yes, I am cynical about this).

Third, somehow you are not really close to them because its compulsory not your own choice to hang out with them. So, it could be awkward because you are not really know them well (unless some cousins who followed each other on social media so I could know their activity). The awkward starts when some relatives start asking unnecessary question like: when you are getting married? why you are being so picky? how can you gain so much weight and being fat (oh I’m gonna discuss this on my next post)?

When I was kid, my mom told me to be polite and act nice to everyone. Its pretty easy for me when I was kid because I only know what is right or wrong based on my parents preferences. Now, I have my own values for what is right or wrong for me. And surely its hard to hid my uncomfortable in my face when I see something wrong. Of course, I still can be nice and smile politely. But, I become much much more cynical. I guess thats the reason why some people prefer to make distance from their family to avoid that kind of situation.

When my dad was in ICU and I was in Canberra, the people that I can ask for help is my two best friends. Even one of them just landed from Portugal and ran to the hospital afterwards. I could not bother to ask my mom’s siblings for help because somehow I feel uncomfortable with them (I am sorry, but it is true).

Maybe this is happened because there are shifting of closeness between family and friends toward our generation. Previously people tend to spend more time with family but now people tend to spend time with friends. So, I even feel closer to my friends rather than with the family. Actually its quite funny that I also saw my mom more close to her friends rather than her siblings anyway.

Well, true that, eventho blood is thicker than water but sometimes there are other things that influence how human relationship between each other. It does not mean that family is less important. But people are free to choose with whom they spend time or put priority.